Dwelling With The Divine, by Thanissara:
Before you know what kindness really is, you must leave things. Feel the future dissolve in a moment like salt in a weakened broth. What you held in your hand, and what you accounted and cared for the safe—all this must go so you know how desolate the landscape can be between the regions of the kindness. How you ride, and ride, thinking the bus will never stop. The passengers eating – and chicken will stare out of the window forever.
Before you learn the tender gravity of kindness, you must travel with the Indian and the white – lies dead, by the side of the road. You must see how this could be you. And I’ll hit you or someone who journeyed through the night with plants and with the simple breath that kept him alive. And before you know kindness is the deepest thing inside, you must know sorrow as the other deepest thing.
You must wake up with sorrow. You must speak to it to your voice catches the thread of all sorrows, and you see the size of the cloth. Then, here’s only kindness that makes sense anymore. Only kindness that ties your shoes, and sense you out into the day to mail all letters and purchase bread. Only kindness that raises its head from the crowd of the world, and said, it is I you have been looking for.
Then it goes with you everywhere like a shadow or a friend. ___.
So, the difference from the practitioners bringing awareness to the contemplation of kindness and compassion, merciful receptivity, until sufferings of the heart, loneliness, seeking, the hopeful, the poignant, to all the very dimensions of our experience. Finding our body. Feeling the sensation of sitting on our cushion. The pressure of the buttocks, and the thighs and the ___, ___ and feet pressing on our cushion, or on our sit, with the feet touching the earth.
Feeling our body just as it is. Knowing this body like all bodies here subject to weakness, to sickness, frailty, or subject to feeling all kinds of unbearable feelings. Subject to stress and overwhelm, to uncertainty and ___, to hope and aspiration, to pleasure and pain, receiving his form of our experience on the flesh and bones and blood and internal organs and skeletal structure until you – experience that subtle around the body, the thoughts, and the feelings and the sensations, receiving everything that we’re with and have been with through this time together.
You know awareness—touching, lightly, welcoming, and bringing awareness we just received on our experience here and now. Beginning as we do so to attune to the simple breath within the body. Feeling how this body breathing, sitting here, this time, this moment, reshaped by the ancestors. All these gone before, this part of what, this carried, within this body, within these memories, within this shaping of the structures of the self.
All the things learnt, all the things feared, all the things understood within reach this human heart, with this great capacity for courage, for love, for patience, for forgiveness, beats intimately.
Feeling from that flow of the generations from the ancestors, ___ each of awakening in all manner of ways supporting us, dressing us, extending love towards us with the intention you can be here, you can do this, you’re welcome here. You are a part of us.
We love you, and we are proud of you. Your achievements and your courage. Feeling as you breathe in, receiving goodness, from this lineage, from within your – heart, from all of us, from all of us sitting here together. The kindness that is shared among us. Allowing that to be breathed in, and through, and infused into your body, all of these bodies. The – body and your feeling body.
Connecting and invoking as we breathe all of the subtle realms of radiance, compassion, great, great compassion and love as demonstrated through the saints, and awakened once receiving that within the bones, that liquid, light. Healing, dissolving unnecessary fears, and struggles, and stress.
As our awareness connects, ___, lineage of awakening. Some time and space, boundless and yet intimate within our hearts, touching us now, breathing in as if using your whole being or whole body, kindness and strength and love, acceptance, gentleness. May this whole body, everything that I feel, all that I struggle with, all the things that I have hope for—may all of these be truly and profoundly well.
Allowing that radiance, that subtle welcome of how it is here and now, that sublime quality within the welcome of love, acceptance, care, ___ for us, allowing that to resonate out in front to the sides and behind your body, to touch the forms around you, ___ out across the local area in towns and cities and landscapes like a rolling wave, lights, warmth, care, mercy, love across this great continent and all the many beings, peoples here. May there be this infusion of great brilliance, light and compassion touching all beings, dissolving fear, suffering, hatred.
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